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Toughest and Best week yet

You may or may not realize I am going through a very unique process, part of which is my commitment to adding posts to this blog. Well I let myself down this week, because I have a commitment to post here by Friday and here it is Saturday.

Now my mind came up with finding a way to back date the post to at least make it look as if I kept my agreement. But the problem with that is, doing that I may be able to fool some people and I could not fool myself, at least now. Sadly at times in my life it has been so easy to lie to myself and believe it. NO LONGER am I willing to cheat myself.

Now why has this week been so tough. For one it really hasn’t in the big picture, realizing I have a roof over my head and most of the bills paid. At the same time it has been tough in the sense that possibly the newness has worn off or I think more to the point my mind is retaliating! Yes I think my mind is balking at doing anything that might break my some of my bad habits. You see I do a daily reading of specific items and it the same readings can you say repetitive.

What has happened is I got angry about doing my readings. Here it was the last hour of my day and of course this is pone of the times throughout my day  when I do my readings. And pardon my french, I’m pissed don’t want to do it, and really for no good reason I’m just pissed. OF COURSE I DO MY READINGS, I know you were thinking he just skipped it that night and went back at it in the morning whole new day and all that. No I could not just skip it, you see I have a commitment and this time I AM HONORING my commitment not only to my Master Mind Alliance but mostly to myself.

I have been lying to myself for decades. I’ve been telling myself “It’s OK you can start again tomorrow” Well the fact is it is not OK to skip a commitment  with the lie that you can just start again tomorrow. I am better than that, I deserve to treat myself better, I MUST STOP lying to myself, my commitments Matters and I Matter, and I can no longer cheat myself.

Now let’s talk about the good stuff, THIS WEEK ROCKED. I won, I kept commitments to myself, I did what I told myself I would do. For some of you, I can hear you saying SO I do that all the time, Congratulations if that is the case for you, my hat is off to you. As for me while I do keep commitments with you on a regular basis, I don’t always keep commitments with ME. It seems it’s easy to cheat me. In fact I have cheated myself and others out of the life I’ve wanted, dreamed of and deserved. NO LONGER am I willing to cheat me.

Appreciating you,

Billy Mitchell

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8 Comments

  1. Standing up to a bully is always a hard thing to do… that is the bully is the old blueprint using its slick ways of attempting to keep you in place as before… congratulations!! You’ve become the observer of your own commitments that you keep. Great week Billy!

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  2. Joe Ebel says:

    Billy, Part of this journey is being honest with ourselves. Your not alone. Thank you for your great post sharing what many of us can relate to. This will be a great journey together. Looking forward to sharing with you on this journey. To your success.

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  3. Bill says:

    Thanks for sharing your story. I was late also Billy. I had back surgery this last week and I put a comment in about that but decided to take it out. God bless you on your journey.

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  4. Billy,

    Great post! Good for you in being true to yourself. Shakespeare wrote: “to thine own self be true, and it must follow as night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.” We are proud of you.

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  5. samuelkawa61 says:

    The truth has set you free. You are now living with cause. You become the person you want to be.

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  6. beth vollmar says:

    really good blog….you are doing great!!!

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